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A fresh start

Journal Entry: Thu Jan 31, 2008, 1:17 AM
  • Mood: Happy Tears
  • Listening to: Ah! My Goddess : Yasashii Kokoro
  • Reading: Zatch Bell
  • Watching: Ah! My Goddes : ep2 "Ah! Those Who Believe Sh
  • Playing: CastleVania Curse of Darkness
  • Eating: Crunch n Munch
  • Drinking: nothing
Wow it sure is funny how you find something you never expected to find when you were looking for something else. I was just digging through some boxes of mine for old drawing pads of mine becuase I felt like drawing and a old notebook pad Ive had for a while fell open to an old letter I had written. It was to Jakki when we were first having problems. I didnt want to read it although a sentance caught my eye to read the letter anyway. The thing is after reading it I finnaly realized how great of a guy I really am. Everyone that I know whos ever talked to who's close to me how good of a person I am and thats why people like or love me for who I am. Even Jakki has told me that, the thing is though ever since she left me I've been blaming myself the whole time. Trying to find out why she left and what could I have done to prevent or at least made her happy. Its kinda hard to see yourself as a wonderful person when you feel like an ass for the actions youve been taking just becuase your angrey and mad almost to the point full of hate. The only thing you can think about is getting even or making them angry to and just laughing at them in thier plight.

But doing things out of irrational angered actions only causes more problems than before and maybe if I had realized that then instead of now maybe I'd have her back in my arms again however seeing how that isnt the case perhaps it just wasn't meant to be and fate had me learn a lesson I'll never forget. By now she probably hate's my guts to death and could care less if I was dying in a gutter sickened, hungrey and homeless.

Heh heh ....... man....Thats kinda my fault for being a pain in the butt, immature, selfish, reckless and implusive. Then again when she's provoking me, that didn't help either. Kinda just did things without thinking or even haveing a plan. Guess we all just have learn life lessons the hard way.

Anywho Ive done a lot of soul searching along with reflecting of who I am now and how I used to be in the past. Trying to be the ideal person I want to one day be and achieve that goal. Along with many other goals in mind.

Needless to say I once said for a heart to heal it takes how long you with that person and for me it was six months. So as of January 25th 2008 its been six months and Im feeling better, at least good enough to just 'date' again but nothing serious. I dont want anything serious for along time, nothing serous for a few years hopefully. Ive got things I want to do in life.

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 22
  • Current Residence: Denton TX
  • Interests: dark stuff ie vamps ect, anime, games, soccer
  • Favourite movie: DBZ:Dead Zone, Iria Legend of Zerim, Blade all 3, Breakfast Club, The Outsiders, I have alot ok favs
  • Favourite band or musician: Two-Mixx, The pillows
  • Favourite genre of music: anime, j-pop, 80's, hip hop, pop, country, well all kinds of music kinda
  • Favourite artist: Aki Shizumi, Rumiko Takahishi, and Oh Great!
  • Favourite poet or writer: n/a
  • Favourite photographer: n/a
  • Favourite style of art: manga and photography
  • Operating System: windows XP
  • MP3 player of choice: Zune
  • Shell of choice: Bullet
  • Wallpaper of choice: anime or game related
  • Skin of choice: Vash T.S.
  • Favourite game: Final Fantasy VII, Suikoden II, and Breath of Fire III
  • Favourite gaming platform: PS2
  • Favourite cartoon character: Tom cat
  • Personal Quote: Never give up and reach your goals
  • Tools of the Trade: Mech Pencils, caligraphy pens

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*Vamprincess-Noa:iconVamprincess-Noa: Dec 10, 2007, 2:40:16 PM
Wow... nice to see you're still alive, Gash. Haven't heard from you since forever o_O

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~black-cat16:iconblack-cat16: Jul 30, 2007, 2:46:07 PM
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SEND THIS TO ALL UR FRIENDS YOU CARE ABOUT AND LOVE INCLUDING THE PERSON WHO SENT IT TO YOU! IF YOU GET MORE THAN 5 BACK YOUR LOVED
~black-cat16:iconblack-cat16: May 22, 2007, 5:28:01 AM
really you dont have to play! this is really to see how much im loved!
I hope for good results!

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~elfgirlyumi:iconelfgirlyumi: Feb 22, 2007, 11:07:36 PM Mood: Sentimental
Thats my Man!!! U know you can Draw and DAMN good to. So wonderful he is....
~SuperN00b:iconSuperN00b: Feb 8, 2007, 6:20:49 PM
:D lol yeah i dont like it that much I think its sux ^^-watches-
*Tahira:iconTahira: Aug 4, 2006, 9:22:25 AM
yeah sure why not? get more recognition

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~gash-kage:icongash-kage: Aug 3, 2006, 9:40:28 PM
its no problem your welcome. BTW Ive posted soem new stuff on FA since thing i suppose I should post them here too?
*Tahira:iconTahira: Jul 30, 2006, 8:44:48 PM
why thank you for the fav!

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~gash-kage:icongash-kage: Mar 16, 2006, 11:37:29 PM
mhmm I love Suikoden II, so wonderful. If only it had a sequal or at least another game that feeds of it, well I can dream cant I. I suppose my art is decent but need to become better, thanks though.
*humengale:iconhumengale: Mar 15, 2006, 12:59:27 PM
Suikoden II... :drool:

You just got my attention. And your art is lovely to boot:heart:

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~Esther-Syxx:iconEsther-Syxx: May 10, 2005, 9:47:16 PM
Welcome to dA - thanks for stoppin - visit any time!:horny:

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*Vamprincess-Noa:iconVamprincess-Noa: Apr 30, 2005, 11:39:45 AM
*looks about*...... Hey Gash ^_^ Welcome to D-Art!
=zzpza:iconzzpza: Apr 29, 2005, 1:58:03 PM
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welcome to dA! i hope you enjoy your time here. :D

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